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                               i remember when i lost my sister, i was so heart broken. i never imagined in my wildest dream that  nnonye my beautiful sister, would die so suddenly without any slightest notice. nnonye was the beauty of the family, her beauty was used as a positive reference case in my home town. anyone who saw her, commented on her beauty &  i loved her so much.

                                            she was my elder sister & we were close, she was such an angel, she could give out every thing she had just to put a smile on the face of any broken individual. i remember when her husband made her cry & she called me to come over to her place, i got there  & when i saw those tears on her face i hated that man with a passion instantly,  but they eventually made up & i left for school.  

                                        she knew i loved her & admired her greatly, but i regret not saying those sweet words to her, i regret not telling her how much i loved her, how much i adored every step she took, how much i missed her when i left home for school. when she wanted me to stay with her in her husband's house  & i refused vehemently, i regret not telling her that it was because i couldn't bear to see her in pain when her in-laws treated her the way they did,  i couldn't let her know that though i was happy she found love i still wished she was not taken away in marriage by the husband. i regret not telling her how beautiful she looked even when she cried.

                                           there is this my favourite proverb that says "you should appreciate a beautiful flower as it blossoms, because the sun might smite it & it loses it's valour" and another one "i remember when i took your car on the road & wrecked it, i thought you'd be livid & come down hard on me, but you didn't. i remember when we went to the beach & you didn't want to go because you said it was going to rain, we went & it rained. i was sure you'd rub it in & say, ' i told you so!' but you didn't. then there was the time i spilled blueberry  juice down the front of your new white tux, i knew you'd be upset & blame me, but you didn't & i remember that formal evening,  i was mistaken & told you it was casual, you wore blue jeans & you felt like a fish out of water when we got there, i was sure you'd storm out in anger &  leave me standing there, but you didn't. 

                                        "when i made up my mind to tell you how much i loved you & appreciated you for all those things you've done for me when i returned home from where i went to, for a peace keeping mission, but when i came back, i didn't meet you & never saw you again, i never had the opportunity to tell you how much i loved & appreciated you &  i miss you now &  forever". 

                                          there is always time to speak, but it's a limited time & when it's over,  it's gone forever. don't spend your future regretting & carrying inside you the unspoken words someone needed to hear. pleasant words are a honeycomb, sweet to the soul & healing to the bones. wait no longer speak the word, few things are as powerful as the right words spoken at the right time, by the same token words withheld when their season of opportunity is gone, are a heavy burden to live with.hold those words no longer, speak it into those ears that deserve to hear it, now that you have the opportunity.

                             this is in memory of my late beautiful sister NNONYE. i miss you, mum misses you, the whole family miss you, you left & took your beautiful smiles with you.

                             REST IN PEACE, NNONYE.