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 There is something about birthdays that force people or at least me to re-evaluate my life and how far I have come, for some people this feeling comes during end or beginning of each year, I guess I am just different or plain weird. Birthdays are supposed to be times to celebrate and await special phone calls from special people, mine is usually different.

 

A typical May 27 for me is always one of these two things, either I indulge myself with work or something that pertains to other people in order not to even remember the occasion or I go into deep hibernation; taking stocking of the past year usually beating up myself for not improving on some things.

 

 A perfect example of the former state of May 27 will be in 2006 when I completely forgot my birthday went to university and all my friends were acting weird; no one said anything so I didn’t remember. At the end of classes that day I wanted to go for a stroll somewhere in the heart of Oxford on my own doing what I usually do, but a friend of mine bless his heart found me at around 4pm and tricked me into following him somewhere because purposely met this girl online he needed to meet up that evening but couldn’t find his mobile so I had to go with him so he can use mine.

 On getting there, they had a surprise party for me. I have to say that is still on record as the most memorable day in my life. But I was very dumb to have fallen for that, I guess I am still as naïve today.

 

I have been thinking about birthday resolutions, I reckon it is a great idea to have resolution during birthdays than any other occasion in the course of a year. As I grow older today, I want to add some things to my list and take some off. I kind of feel lame to be thinking this at this time of the year but hey, its my life. I have been taking stocks of late and I decided there is some good habits I want to develop and bad ones I need to kick to the curb. So here is my list of things I would like to do more of and things I will like to do less of.

 

(1)   Do something for my health everyday. It may be walking, sit-ups, yoga whatever just something for my body each day. As a good friend of mine said recently “ our bodies are the one thing that goes everywhere with us, so we should make taking care of them # one.

(2)   Spiritual self-care. Feeding the spirit so it can sustain the mind and body throughout the day. It can be listening to a message, audio bible, and motivational teachings, reading the bible and daily personal devotion a must.

(3)   Doing something for the mind. Everyday. It can be reading a chapter of a book a day, playing family feud, read a newspaper, anything that makes me think or adds to my understanding of the world. Reading psychology journals and blogs do not count.

(4)   Taking care of me first. It can be saying no, or caring for myself enough to not be around those that constantly put me down.

(5)   Constantly reminding myself that I have no control over other people’s choices and actions.

(6)   Having me time during the day; time to just gaze into space with my mind not working on overtime.

(7)   Watch more TV.

(8)   Start cooking again.

(9)   Be less in love with Human science and how the mind works.

 

Things I will like to do less of:

 

(1) Spending too much time reading psychology journals, Roosh’s blogs and scouting for a good blogs on wordpress.com.

 

(2) Reading over books I have read more than twice already; I mean this is sick.

 

(3) Lend my books out more; I find it really difficult to give out my books, I always feel people will not return them or look after well.

 

(4) Visit Perezhilton.com less.

 

(5) Leave my University research papers alone; I mean I am done with Psychology degree, get over it Rebecca

 

(6) Eat less junk food. I am growing older; I need to pay more attention to what I allow in.

 

(7) Stop obsessing with body weights; its about time.

 

 

 

 

How many times have you gotten out of a relationship and been like
"damn what was i doing with such a looser....i really took shit from him." or
"Wow this gurl has sucked me dry i should have listened... and she might have actually cheated on me like my friend said"

Do you know that when you are sooo close to a situation you are blind.
whatever he explains to you is right.
whatever she says you should do out of love is right.
Any excuse is a good excuse...i mean there is love right? <3

you need to step away from the situation for a while and see if what you see is the same thing you saw before...

We tend to complain about the things we dont have when we have everything we actually need.
In our quest for higher things and intense luxury we loose our true personality.
If someone took half of what you already own away....u will be broken
But then that will take you at least 5 steps away from the situation to appreciate the things you presently have...

you need to step away from the situation body and mind not just phisically to apreciate or c the wrong part of something....

LADIES>..i always have to drop aline for you guys.... Dont sit ther and take trash from a guy out of love...in every situation ask yourself.."Would someone who loved me want this for me for my good?"..."would someone who cared actually do this just cause they could say sorry? "

(ps+ i write in a rush so slide over the errors.)

xoxo

Pains is good sometimes, its magnitude bitter
Its brings along close relatives fear and anxiety
Such was the experience of the northern park
From the unset, Belsize park was promising
This park blossomed with hopes and aspirations
Its uttered words that livens living soul
If black could be made white with words
Belsize would make history.

Belsize how I loved it, possibly still do
But like it is said love is never enough
Whoever spoke these words must
Have been aware of Belsize Park
And it’s unstably nature, till this day
Its intentions remain a mystery

Belsize had a special spark about it
It was the perfect park to unwind
Like the sun that shines in spring time
Belsize was more so beautiful
But fear which came after the experience
Was unbearable, fear griped me
Each time I approached this northern park.

I kept passing through Belsize to over my fears
In the end, belsize was conquered.

Rebecca aka. Lady Eno